2012-01-23 - Life

So I realized something rather profound yesterday. Like all profound things it’s probably bull but I'm in that kind of mood and I feel like sharing it anyway. You can stick your fingers in your ears and yell if you want; it's probably the best option.

So anyways, I was thinking about why I hate job hunting so much and it suddenly hit me, I hate job hunting because I don’t like the idea of other people having control over MY life. I’m not religious primarily because I don’t like the idea of God having control over my life so it makes sense that people would bug me even more. As it stands right now I’m in some kind of limbo waiting room train station. Whatever job I end up getting will greatly determine the rest of my life and until that path is settled I can’t really do anything. I don’t know where I’m going to be or what I’m going to be doing so there’s no real point to starting anything. I’m waiting for someone to say “Hey, come and work for us” but apart from interviews most of that decision rests with them. I can do my best to look like I’d be a good candidate but for the most part it’s out of my control and I hate that. It also worries me that if I can’t find a job in a few months I am basically screwed as I will run out of money.

Just in case I'd like to say no offense intended to perspective employers. As annoyed as I am about giving control of my future up to random people I'm willing to forget it all if it means not having to search for a job anymore.